Well since I last posted not to much has happend. I don't really leave the house and all I do is work work work! But hey.. not to much different than what I did when I lived in Ohio right? RIGHT!
I keep myself pretty busy around here. Cleaning, dishes, lots of laundry! I have to do it though. Becuz if I don't then I think. And when I have the time to sit and think... well you know... It's about her. I have talked to her a couple of times since I've been here. It's always the hardest one me. But damn it all, I miss her and I miss my dog! I JUST WANT MY FAMILY BACK!
She was in a pretty shitty mood yesterday.. And of course I called and got the brunt of it all. So I'm refusing to call her or text her today or tomorrow. I don't know where we stand as of yet. I'd go back in a heartbeat. I love her. But I'm not seeing how this 'seperation' that she so desperatly wants is helping us at all. She says that she will come for me, she says that she still considers herself married, she says that she still loves me, she says that she is taking this time to figure out how she can be 'in love' with me again. And of course, I'm just here. I live day to day, minute to minute, second to second. Wanting to be with her and to hold her and to kiss her is the hardest.