Oh tonight was just wonderful!!! It was our date night.... We went to Applebee's and had dinner and then trying to decide what there was to do on a thursday night we ended up renting movies instead!!!!!!!!!!!! We rented the Sex and The City movie. I know I know... its been out for a long long time...... lol but I could NEVER drag the wife out to go see it!!! I just loved that movie and know I will be watching it a few more times before we have to return it :O) We also rented the movie the Ruins.... Ok that crap was freaky! Those were the only two that we got thru tonight. We also rented Rest Stop and Leatherheads... but those are being saved to watch tomorrow night.
I got to thinking tonight as we were out and about having our "date night." And I just know that I am truly blessed to have someone who loves me soooo much. My wife is the most amazing, most caring, most beautiful person I know. I honestly don't know where I would be today without her. She saved me. In more ways than one! She truly is a testament to me. When we met I was going thru the roughest patch in my life (which when I say that I truly mean it) I have had my fair share of the hardest times and have overcome so much. But at the point when I met Amy it was like I was at the time in my life when I was just giving up on everything. I gave up on finding someone, I gave up on ever making anything of myself, I gave up on ME. And that is a hard hard thing for me to admit today.
I've had rough patches in my life. I over came child abuse. I over came drug addiction. I over came failed marriage (to the husband). I over came rape and molestation. I really thought that my life as I knew it was going no where but down. Often, before I met my wonderful wife, I thought about suicide. I thought about running from Ohio and starting over where no one knew me. I contimplated so so much before I met her. It was just a normal day feeling down and out that I happened to be online on Myspace of all places when I was just to the point of shutting down the computer when alas.... a lone message out in cyber world popped up on my screen. It was Amy :O). My sweet beautiful Amy. And all the message said was "Hi. You look like a cool person to get to know." Yup that was all it said! (i came to learn later that it took her 10 minutes before she could hit the send button) So I thought to myself what the heck... can't hurt to write her back... And alas..... here we are a year later :O) I have never been more happy, more fullfilled, more loved than I am today writing this! And the amazing thing is I find something new every single day that makes me love her all over again. We don't fight, we don't bicker. We truly do communicate. It amazes me. I NEVER thought I could find that one true person to stick with me in the good times and bad. Just when I was ready to give up on me, someone (Amy) saves me. I am truly blessed to have such an amazing woman stand beside me.
Growing up I never had support, love, and understanding. And I searched and searched and never really found it. And who would have thought that MySpace of all places is where I would have truly found the love of my life. She is my soulmate. She is the air I breath. And I love her til the end of time.